Rape is such a terrible thing to happen to someone, and I’m so sorry that you have to carry that baggage everyday. You need to understand that trust is an important thing, and there are people out there who you can trust. It takes a strong person, and I think this guy you were talking to realized that he doesn’t have the strength to endure your struggle with you. That’s part of a relationship, enduring struggles with the person. There are wonderful people out there who will not only love you despite your flaws, but be able to be strong for you when you need them to be. I know this may seem far fetched now, but it is possible because just from hearing your story, I can tell you are a beautiful person. You are not an idiot, you are human and sometimes people let us down just like the cable box tells us a show is on when it’s not. We still use the cable box because in general, it is correct. It isn’t a sign from anyone, don’t turn religion into something that has a destiny for your life. Your life is in your hands and anything “upstairs” should just tell you how to live your life; as a good person and nothing else (don’t kill anyone, ect.) As for facing him at work, just try to be friendly if he talks to you but focus on your work. Avoid “dipping the pen in company ink” in the future because it rarely ends up to be a good thing. I hope this helps :/
